& i think more

I know I’ve been cranky like forever! Omg. Dont know if it’s the not enough sleep or tired or just plain cranky.

Hmmm, I know I don’t have anymore feelings for him. But I do feel jealous. Like if he’s ever attached, I think I will be damn jealous. Just so weird. I really can confirm I do not have anymore feelings for him anymore. Like really NO more. But why uh.. So weird. I know I don’t. Just probably the aftermath. It was like I loved him so much before. Like so much. All hopes & dreams = him. Till the day we break up. Gosh. It’s damn haunting. Just hurts la. Seriously, it could just be the aftermath. Maybe I really shouldn’t talk to him anymore. People say you dont talk to ex-boyfriends. I do though. okay James is NOT considered as a ex-boyfriend. Sometimes you just to tend to think alot about your past & all. I really wonder if my past will haunt me as much as how whatever happened between him & I is haunting me. It’s frustrating. It’s very tiring. ARGH! But sometimes thinking about whatever James say really helps me to comfort my feelings. He has a point saying those stuff.

Big day tmr. All the best to me uh.. last lap; give it all no matter what I’ll still give it all.