The world is spinning too

Hooh, my head hurts alot. But I still need to get up to do coke zero haiz.

Whenever the body is at pain, the head is at pain, the mind is at pain, I will reminiscence Darren. Eeh. I think IT IS the unbearable pain of my mind, my body and my heart that is almost similar during the separation. No pain could be similar to that pain I went through 2 years ago. Stinging, aching. Horribly ripping me apart.

I want to get better.. I want to sleep forever and find those SuperTrouper beams(:

I cannot stop thinking about how sweet death can be now. Really. Haha I don’t think I am crazy but I am excited about death. It’s like dying is when one goes back to Allah. That is what I want to do. Tapi rasanya belum taubat habis. Tak sanggup pula nak mengakhiri di neraka. Hmm.. Dying and death is a new beginning (:

Dah sakitsakit ni best jugak(: Could feel my change. Which is a good thing. And yes talking to Firdaus helps a lot. Best dapat kawan soleh macam Firdaus.. Alhamdulilah (: talking to Bruno when demam demam ni is very soothing to the heart & mind also. We’re discussing ooonnnnnn….

FRENCH BLUE CHEESE VS DURIAN!!!

eh results turn out to be 1-1 (: Fair enough. He hates durians. I hate blue cheese. We’re fair(:

My new life motto: To mind my words, mind my sight, mind my hearing, mind my heart. Determination to accomplish everything I have set on with diligence & perseverance. To give smiles to those who has nothing to laugh about  (:

I sat down to write a bucket list. Then I realised I wanted nothing in this world Accept happiness for everyone. I don’t know if it is a good thing. I mean like of course there is something I’d like to do/have. Like going for bungeeee jump. Doing crazy things and just go bonkers. Then of course othr more domestic stuff like getting married to a good man and having 7 children. (like Father Abraham. LOL?) Getting Phd. All these are more of my-wish-list rather than my bucket list. But I don’t exactly have something I want which could be considered meaningful other than for the happiness of the people I love, my family & friends. I just think happiness is too little nowadays. It wasn’t as generous as before

Alamak, rindu Zaki lah seh Been really long