Early bird

Yay! I am the early bird at school today(: Sadly, can’t do much yst cos I was too mad. I know it’s NOT GOOD to be mad. I am not exactly mad, mad.. Just hmm. lalalalalaa…

Early morning unoffiicial French lessons with Mr Bruno Benveniste-Profichet. Whose sir name I obviously can’t pronounce. Ben-ven-ist-pro-fi-sheh I think. LOL. So I keep telling Hafiza Bruno is really nice. Always come and talk to his friends in sg. Like ALL THE TIME. Even though he’s like miles away in France. He is really nice. Okay, maybe in my “The more nice people list”  (: Am really looking forward for him to come back to sg again.

FEATURE

Bruno Benveniste-Profichet

I need to thank him for teaching me French. It’s always nice to talk to him. Like all the time (:

hee-hee I stole his picture from FB. Bruno, say Hi! (:

More beautiful people to come (:

Haa, now I feel a bit stupid. Or infact, ALOT stupid. I overreact. Often. Especially when it comes to him. BUT I am certainly keeping more cool now. (: Hopefully things will just remain as what they are already.

A happy bird I am now. (: Oh did you look at the sunset today? One of the most beautiful and aweesome sunset I’ve seen. Really. The clouds. Hooh. Warms my heart. Gives blanket my cold heart. Gives me so much strength and energy now. I love nature (:

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Crank that! hoo….

hee, Fast and Furious. hooh, that’s wht soujia boy is so repeatedly playing in mind head!

Trip back was aweeehsome! Then again everytime I go back I DON’T WANT TO COME BACK! really. it’s so much slower there. I like. Unlike sg. Urgh, frustrated you cannot keep in pace with time. You don’t have to worry about it there. Ah, my heart always cries when I have to think that I am not actually meant to live there. I hate to go back. Really. I don’t want. I don’t want. You know people there are so much nicer than here. I need to live with more nice people.

So today. I think we’re going to watch Fast & Furious 4 (: heeheh. I’ve promised myself to live life highhh no matter what. So yes, will do justice to it. Despite the fact I’ve been thinking of no one but Darren. Yes, Darren. Haiz.. Don’t know lah. I miss him so dearly. Like really. See this is the problem when you are close to someone the possibility of losing someone gets higher. Then when you finally lose someone it gets harder to move on and then you get upset. MORE & you feel like dying all over again. Same goes to all other men that has ever entered. Or been lingering outside the heart. haa, what’s life if you don’t get hurt.

Suci dalam debu

Hee, a matter of hours bfore I’m going(: Haiz. One problem with me now. Everytime balik kampung tak nak balik spore. Tak nak balik lah!! Nak duduk sana. Lagi best. Singapore really has nothing. NOTHING. At least if at rumah Wak Andan ada kebun buah (: BEST giler. I am excited. Like really. SUPERLY excited! BALIK KAMPUNG!!! ohohohooo BALIK KAMPUNG! (sing along lah!)

Kalau dah namanya orang Melayu tetap Melayu juga. I tend to miss those times when I was much younger and had more time to go back. Those times were really fun. Really. I think duduk kat kampung best. BEST SANGAT SANGAT!

Tiring but fun day with Nasyat, Nakib, Batrisyia and Yuni yst. (: Kids are awesome. Really. Nakib beat me in badminton. Damn. The small man is really good i tell you!

Aha I am NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO COME BACK! NO! grrr!

boohoo!

Yeh, you are right. He is the inspiration. Good thoughts=good words (:

Fatigue pumps in unknowingly in this weary mind and soul. Push my self. Know my limits (:

Fatigue

Oh dear

Nenek is sick. Hope Parkinsons is not killing her just yet. If I can’t get passport in time to leave Singapore I’ll be very mad. Ok, that also means I have to stay in Singapore alone. I need to go back. I really need to go back.

Snail mail is pretty addictive. I like the feeling of mailing things to friends (: it’s nice..

There’s a lot to be done. I’m slowing down again. Turn me around. Get me a Uturn sign. I need to get back on track.

Tired eyes cannot conquer mind to be tired too. CANNOT!

The mind will explode

My Finest Illusion

Breezy air blowing through the soft cheeks

Followed by fresh smelling daises

Red petals falling on the ground

Dried leaves dancing with the wind

Warmth of earth felt at my toes

Gives blanket to the cold heart

Soul lies in comfort

Feels the everlasting fantasy

The sweet infinte joy tickles my senses (:

Haha.. Am I feeling happy? I guess. While listening to Yo-yo Ma.  (: He’s awesome. Today’s more classical. hee(:

Oh dead boring life. But I’m happy (:

I need to get passport done asap. GRR.

Moving on….

See, the new door has come. Quick eh?(:  Alhamdulilah..

Pay coming in hooo…

NOW, lagu-lagu hindustan. Don’t ask why.. Hoo and Haa and lalala and ahhaaaa…HAHAA

I smell you in the blood running through my veins

I hear you as my heart beats

I feel you every time the cold breeze brush through my wasted cheeks

I savor your sweet tender lips that used to touched mine

But the eyes never sees you at my sight.

Oh again…

A pretty productive Sunday. I did justice to myself by resting. & then do what’s supposed to be done.

Broken string
Can’t feel anything
But just the pain stinging
Cos now you are already leaving

Why can’t you just wait to still believing
That one day our hearts will continue to be singing?

I need to have the courage to face him. If “he” ’s  no longer there then be it. I’ll have to accept it. Move on to what’s better. Regardless or not whether I contact him, still be around him.. I’m sure it’ll not make any difference to him. Or for the matter of fact, doesn’t even matter. I need to change, for my better. I’ll still wait for him patiently. For him to “come back”. For now I need to beg myself to put him behind. Time will heal my lost.

As the old door shuts, a brand new door with greater opportunities open.

eh, I still can’t explain why I don’t like to visit his blog, blehhh.. who cares. this tingling, annoyed, menyampah vibe. YES SUPER MENYAMPAH. Lol? who cares. really.

Oh the one miles away is being super nice. (: teeheehee. I wish he’ll come back to sg. Soon. haiz..

I’m so hardworking. It’s 5am and I’m still doing school work. HAH(:

Ask if I’m tired, the body answers yes, very. But for scholarship, ask if I am still tired. The body answers no!!

Gives you hell! (:

Nice sunday afternoon, oh will it rain? Will it rain?I hope so(:

Today is the day! (: eclipse and breaking dawn here I come! heeteehee. I think the only reason why girls think twilight is super interesting is because they’re no nice men like Edward. See, when girls adore twilight it PROVES men sucks! It’s become THAT BAD that girls seeks into books for their love fantasy. I am so sexist now! yeah! Actions is evidence! Hmm one fine day I was at Cathay this is what Sarah shared:

Sarah: You know now there seems like there’s only 10 cute/hot men left in the world

Agnotti: Why? I thought you said there’s a million. And we’ve only met 2-3 out of the million there’s so many more cute/hot men to meet!

Sarah: Okay, see there’s 10 men. Half are probably taken right? Then let’s say 3 are gays. See, we’re left with only 2.

Agnotti thinks: HAHAHAHA. One for you one for me lah!(:

People at Cathay always have interesting conversations. Really. Stop and you think.

Now, gives you hell! The All American Rejects on repeat! Sing along lah seh!

When you see my face hope it gives you hell,hope it gives you hell. When you walk my way hope it gives you hell hope it gives you hell! (:

Nice song. Aweeweee-some! (: